Episode 007: Honoring the Sacred "Yes"
With Savannah Thomas
In order to live our soul's path, we have to show up for ourselves. We have to choose to explore, discover and ultimately, embody who we were born to be. No one else can show up for us. We have to make an individual choice to walk our path.
On this episode, I speak with Savannah Thomas, Budding Astrologer, about saying "Yes" to our journey and enjoying the ride. This conversation is packed with amazing insights about what true embodiment looks like and about what it takes to heal ancestral trauma and show up for ourselves to walk our authentic path.
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Savannah: People finding their purpose and their path is just having more people representing or just following their truth, unabashedly just like saying yes to their, to their frequency. I don't think we see enough of that and people naming it explicitly and saying like, I'm honoring my sacred “Yes”.
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Each of our lives is a spiritual journey. This episode is called, honoring the sacred. Yes, because when you were a soul that chose to come to this planet, you [00:02:00] chose to say yes to this sacred experience. And your journey is really a journey of embodying your frequency, the frequency of your soul. The frequency of your higher self.
And a way to understand that frequency is astrology. When we look at our birth chart, we can see just what that choice was to come onto planet earth and to have an experience. Now, of course your birth chart is not. Uh, completely faded. This is it. You've got no choice. In fact, quite the opposite. You a soul chose to come into a body. You said yes, to having an experience on planet earth.
And your birth chart shows what that choice was. What was the game and what did you set up for yourself? I'm not sure if you've ever played, um, the game, the computer game, the Sims. But I often think about this. If you've ever played the Sims before then, you know that you create an [00:03:00] avatar, you create a SIM.
Uh, and you give them a name and a personality and you give them different characteristics and traits, and then you give them different objectives for their lives. And then you play them. You have the buy a house, get a job, meet relationships, all that kind of stuff. I, uh, for those of your listings, let me have, you might know this actually, but I spent a lot of time as a child, my sister and I spent a lot of time playing the, since.
Anyway. It is a really good analogy for what this whole experience is on planet earth. Not saying it's exactly the same. But you as a soul, your higher self chose to come in here and have an experience. You have a very unique frequency. And it really is our job on this spiritual path to do what's required on our own journey to understand that frequency, to unlock it and to express it fully.
And when we express that fully. [00:04:00] We live the path to our purpose.
Cameron: On today's episode, I'm with Savannah Thomas. Welcome Savannah./
Track 1: Thank you.
Cameron: Savannah Thomas is a budding astrologer based in Phoenix, Arizona. As her Saturn return reaches exactitude, she's learning what it means to truly surrender. In doing so, she invites miracles and play into her life with an open heart and a curious mind.
She's leaning into life, letting spirit lead the way she invites, those she connects with to join along and play alongside her. I'm excited to play with you today.
Track 1: Yes, yes. So Aries , I'm just gonna play.
Cameron: Aries, I'm so happy to have you on the podcast. So let's just jump right in here. Um, what marked the beginning of your spiritual journey?
Track 1: Oh my goodness. I love this question so much. I love, I also love the responses you've been getting from other people, cuz I feel like they're all so unique, but bring us to similar places in our lives, [00:05:00] which is so profound and beautiful. Um, but I think my spiritual awakening. Has to, I have to, I can't not talk about my spiritual upbringing.
Um, It's as far as like what led me to my spiritual awakening, I was raised in a very, um, strict Christian home as many of us were. And, um, I was raised as one of Jehovah's Witnesses. And the way that my, uh, household related to faith was very, um, for lack of a better word, I would say sterile. Um, the faith in the way that they would practice just didn't have this like visceral feeling that I was like craving with.
Um, worship essentially. Um, and I had this really interesting experience growing up. Um, I was an only child and I was basically kind of, um, uh, trained to be a, a missionary by the time that I turned 18. And [00:06:00] so throughout my whole life, my whole childhood, I had this feeling of like, you know, this faith doesn't really feel like it belongs to me.
I don't know if this. Is something I continue, can continue with. And this is happening, this conversation I'm happening, um, is happening in my head while I'm in high school. And then I graduate and I turn 18 and my parents are kind of looking at me expectantly to, you know, you know, go into the field and become a missionary.
And I just remember it, that feeling was physically repulsive to me. Like I just, that was like, In retrospect, that was my intuition, begging and screaming for me to just listen to it and honor it. And so I did what I knew how to do best at that time. And I sabotaged. I like self-sabotaged that trajectory.
I collapsed the timeline, um, without realizing it essentially. And I told my parents I wasn't a virgin, which is true. And um, that kind of imploded.
Cameron: you're like, no, I don't wanna be a missionary. I'm just [00:07:00] gonna blow this up.
Track 1: Yeah, I was like, I actually can't be a missionary because your rules do not allow me to, because I have, I've been, I've been fucking , so I can't do that anymore. So, um, I will just cut a long story short, um, I remember my parents were super disappointed in me. That was like a really hard, I would say that was probably one of my first like dark nights of the soul.
And I remember my mom dropped me off in front of the community college, uh, in my local hometown. And she was like, well, since you can't be a missionary, like, I guess you'll just go figure this out, you know? And I remember taking, um, the placement exam and I aced it and I got a scholarship. And I felt like in that moment I felt very blessed.
Like, ugh, like. Like I was, I felt so protected and supported in a way that I couldn't articulate. In retrospect, it was like absolutely spirit being like, we got you. You're gonna be fine. And I remember [00:08:00] specifically, um, since I was an honors student with a scholarship, I had to take an honors class and I had registered so late in the summer for these classes because, Um, that wasn't, school just wasn't my plan, essentially.
So the only honors classes that were left that interest me were anthropology. Every, all of the sociology, the English 1 0 1, the typical honors classes that you take to kind of like get your pre-reqs out of the way were all booked out. So I just took this anthropology class cuz it looked kind of interesting and I'll never forget my professor, I've looked on the internet for her to this day cuz she has.
Been like the absolute catalyst for my spiritual awakening. Um, her name is Darby Heath. She was phenomenal and in the beginning of class she talked about anthropology and, and she barefoot long black hair. Major Crone energy. Um, she was like very, she was like, I am a witch. Like, I just will never forget her being like, I'm a witch.
And [00:09:00] I was just like, my body was like, yeah, like, tell me more. Like, what else you got? Like what are we doing today in class? Are we casting spells? Um, didn't, we didn't, we didn't do anything like that. But, um, she, she was so, she was so articulate in the way that she, um, explained what an institution was, and that's not necessarily something super spiritual, but she explained what an institution was, how there's always a rank and file, and that there are always beneficiaries at the top who are benefiting from this like, um, larger class of people.
And. I remember like my heart started racing, my palm started sweating when she taught that lesson about institutions because I saw so clearly like my whole lived experience, like in the church, basically in organized religion. And that she was able to give it a name and when you name something like you can, you can see beyond it almost.
And so she kind of, she didn't necessarily like rip open my third eye and like expose me to all these like profound new age spiritual things. [00:10:00] But she, she almost like, Open the door and just let it creak open. Just the tiniest bit and my curiosity from that moment, just like I completely felt so much permission to, um, just honor the feelings that I had my whole life and, and explore what curio and my curiosities about spirituality basically, because I, I knew that where, where I had been was, um, not for me, and that was, okay.
So,
Cameron: Was there something about anthropology in particular that was sort of spiritual for you or No? Probably just this interaction with this woman.
Track 1: Um, I think it was spiritual because, well, it, it ps my curiosity around spirituality because we were just exposed to indigenous. Like cultures, like she taught us about in what it means to be indigenous to a land and to like live in harmony and rhythm with like nature cycles, which was, you know, so [00:11:00] that it is incredibly witchy.
And so I just couldn't stop. I was obsessed. I have been obsessed ever since with these ideas of like, you know, ancient cultures who honor women. So I would say yes.
Cameron: So then that was like the spark for you, and then what happened afterwards? Or what sort of spiritual techniques? Modalities. I know of one of them because I'll share how we met and stuff. But then what happens? So the door swung wide open
Track 1: Mm-hmm.
Cameron: like, okay, no more religion, but there's something else.
So what is this?
Track 1: Yeah. Um, I would say, I am recollecting, like that era of my life, it was so tumultuous and emotional, but I remember really, really being obsessed with sacred, sacred geometry, which is astrology, you know, and astrology, which is sacred geometry. Um, those are the two, um, things [00:12:00] that I, that felt very accessible to me.
I was still living at home and so I couldn't necessarily explore, you know, I didn't. Feel comfortable, you know, cath, like doing any type of like ritualistic spell work in my parents' home. I, I was trying to be respectful and also like, I definitely have like a witch wound where I had to like do these things in secret, um, and private and so, Um, I would say astrology because it was something that I could access online in the privacy of my room.
that's so funny to say out loud. Other people are like, like scouring the internet for like smutty material. . Just like in my, my doors locked and I'm looking up my birth chart. That's so funny. Um, , but I would say astrology was absolutely, um, I, I felt so seen once I realized that there was more to life than just your sun sign or more to astrology than just your sun sign.
I was like, I'm an Aquarius moon. I'm a feral rising. That's why I'm so nitpicky. That's why I am so detached, uh, every so much made [00:13:00] sense in that moment and, um, in a, in a. World that was built around me, where I was told who I needed to be in order to em and conform. Astrology was like, you can't because this is who you came here to be, and it was just such a permission slip.
So I owe so much of my life to astrology.
Cameron: Yeah, I mean, me too. That was definitely part of my awakening. Um, In 2018, when I left my job, my life in Massachusetts, moved across the country to San Diego, I left a master's program for a PhD. I left a relationship. There was a lot of things going on. I was plummeted straight into my darked of the soul.
Oh, and I left the
Track 1: Mm-hmm.
Cameron: a very similar parallel here and. It was astrology and astrology reading with someone that really actually helped me out of that because I was at a place where honestly it [00:14:00] wasn't doing great and I didn't know how to do any better. I didn't know what to turn to anymore. And so when I had my very first reading, it was, as you're saying here, extremely validating of who I.
Came here to be, and obviously many of you know this, if you're listening to me now that I've committed, you know, my life's work, just sharing this. Um, but yeah, there is so much wisdom inside of astrology and knowing that you are a soul that came into a body with a specific plan and a specific signature full of traumas and dramas and all these things from your past lives, but with a plan in place.
Um, Yeah, it's really beautiful. I'm gonna be mindful in this conversation, but I know that Sav and I can get real nerdy with astrology cuz it's pretty much, not pretty much, it's exactly how we met. So I just wanna share that story a little bit. We, I went to a tea house in Los Angeles a month or two ago. I don't really [00:15:00] know when it was, and, Basically I sat down on the ground next to this woman, there's like a pillow, and I was like, I'll sit here like under the staircase in this tiny little closet room thing.
I'm like, yeah, this is cool. This is like straight up hippie land, but I love it. And this was your friend I just started talking to. But she said to me, she's like, oh my gosh, you need to meet my friend. She's into astrology and actually she just did something big today, and I was like, okay, can't wait to talk to her.
And then you sat down and I don't even remember. I don't remember the beginnings of any conversation. I just remember that you and I talked for the next several hours, . It was like we just
Track 1: my gosh.
Cameron: in with like life itself, um, and all things astrology, of course. So yeah, we got another astrology nerd here.
Do you wanna share, uh, with people what had happened that day?
Track 1: Yes. Oh my God. I would love to . So I, um, [00:16:00] I was in la I live in Phoenix and I was invited to LA uh, with my friend. She was there, I'll say on business. She was there, um, helping out a friend and. I, she's a Taurus, Venus Taurus son, um, Taurus, mercury, very indulgent. And so this Tea House seemed like the perfect place to take her as a belated birthday gift.
So, um, we go, essentially, I went to LA to. Go to the tea house with her. But also I went to LA with the mindset that I, I said, I told myself I cannot leave without creating an LLC for my business. Uh, I think we've talked about this before offline, but traveling really does just, it, it alters something in you like you're not the same after you travel, even if it's.
To somewhere, you know, you know another state over. I really do believe that there's something that shifts inside of you, just being away from your routine. And so I told myself, you know, I have to start my [00:17:00] llc. I looked, I cast a chart for June 1st. The first day of pride month, Gemini season. I'm a, um, excuse me, I'm a Virgo Rising, so it's right on my mid-heaven.
For any astrology nerds. Um, June 1st, the sun was like right on top of my mid-heaven and there was a couple other auspicious aspects happening that day. So yeah, I started my LLC star hag astrology, um, the, the day we met and we met a couple hours later. Okay.
Cameron: I know, which was so amazing. I also created something that day, if I remember the north door was also doing something similar. So I also did something really big that day too. So here we are. If you guys can imagine like brick wall closet looking. Pillows on the ground and we're just like straight up geeking out about all this stuff.
So, um, yeah, that's a huge deal. I actually would love, maybe you'll connect the dots to what you've already shared, but where did Star Hag come from?
Track 1: Yes. Oh my goodness. I, there's a part of me that just [00:18:00] absolutely, I. I'm so curious about things that the, that dominant culture finds repulsive. Um, and I think I could go on such a tangent right now, but I'll try and keep it succinct. I love old women . I, when I was younger, around the time that I had my spiritual awakening, I didn't share this piece, but I was also, my grandma lived with my family at the time.
We were, we were caregiving for her. And, um, Since I didn't have a full-time job, I was her primary caregiver. And I just, I love the energy of a, just like an old bitch. She says whatever the fuck she wants, she just stands in her power. She has nobody to impress. She's not seeking validation. Like I love Theron Energy, I love the Baba Yaga, I love the, the Salty Sea hag.
It's all, so, it's also enchanting to me. Um, and I really think there's so much wisdom and knowledge in these. Old wise woman that is so discredited because they're not fuckable or whatever, you know, the world de [00:19:00] deems, uh, as undesirable. Once you hit a certain age, you expire. Um, so it's almost like a reclamation and it's the almost like, you know, I, we've talked offline again about me speaking to my younger self, but I feel like embodying this hag persona is also me speaking to my future self of this like, old, accomplished wise woman who can, um, Support and, and give people clarity and, um, I would say like love really.
Cameron: Beautiful. Do you feel like in this too, that you are reclaiming aspects of yourself from other lives? Other times?
Track 1: I mean, I feel like, yeah, I feel like I have to say yes because my, this life, this life, this incarnation feels so fucking good, cam, like I feel so good as Sav. Um, and I feel like it's just been like I have done a lot of work and I'm happy to talk about that too. Um, cuz I think. The, a lot of the grief work that I've done has been really instrumental in me being able to say [00:20:00] that so confidently.
But, um, yeah, I think in this lifetime, I mean, I chose to undo a lot of, of gnarly stuff. So, um, I think I'm making my future self proud. My younger self and lifetimes prior, just elated and my ancestors.
Cameron: Mm. No, I can feel that. Okay. Well, yeah, I would like to explore that with you. So in terms of grief, healing, grief is what you said, but you can share other pieces if you want. So what has your healing journey look like? Um, what. Sort of tools and you know, when people, when people talk about the spiritual journey, a lot of times it sounds lovely with the awakening, right?
Like, oh my gosh, we think of something, or we have this awareness or something awakens within us. And then what Most people, it's a beautiful moment and things change and it's like, you know, light rainbows and lollipops everywhere until, and it happens usually very quickly. For some people it's immediate.
For some it's a few days, [00:21:00] weeks, a month, whatever you go through. dark night, which you just described. So you become aware of something and that feels great. And then all of a sudden, because you're now more aware, you're aware of darkness, you're aware of old patterns, you're aware of trauma, you're aware of things that need healing.
So healing is always an important component of the spiritual journey. So yeah. What would you like to share about your own healing journey, um, along the way?
Track 1: yes. Yeah. I will say I have had multiple phases, iterations of awakening and healing. Um, and I would say my most recent wave of healing that I've. Where I really feel like I gave myself, um, the space to just crack open and completely fall apart was, I would say over the past year. Uh, I am, I didn't, I don't know if I've, I've shared this with you, but I am, I mean, you know that I'm queer.
But I recently came out to my parents, so I've been with my partner for years, and the pandemic made it [00:22:00] really easy for me to just keep my distance and just keep my mouth shut and just not have to deal with that. That really big wound of, uh, confronting abandonment really, because I don't really, I'm estranged from my parents, my immediate family at this point, and which is really painful as an only child.
And so I came out to my parents, um, I, I wrote this really beautiful letter that I still feel really empowered by when I revisit it. And, um, I just kind of, my best friend held my hand while I sent that letter. And yeah, and from that moment I just literally, like, I let the grief just like wash over me, the pain that I had been avoiding for years.
From, you know, I would say for like the past 10 years, really just, I just let it wash over me. And around that time I also took a grief course with one of my dear friends who I met while I was doing a work trade on a farm up in Prescott, Arizona. Um, which is another story for another time. But, um, we took a [00:23:00] grief class together that taught us embodiment.
And I would say the teacher, um, she was probably, she would identify as a witch, I would say too, but she was very, um, very adamant about, Um, somatic work. I thought the grief class was going to be about how to process loss and how to feel your feelings, but it was, I mean, it was about how to feel your feelings, but it was like, this is how you really, really like, like excavate the, like, the crushing root of your heart and really like, understand your pain and understand that if you can feel it, you can hold it.
And so in doing that and feeling my feelings and holding my feelings and knowing that it will pass if I just let myself feel it, oh my gosh. Like I would say my healing, my spiritual, my connection to spirit, like accelerated so much when I finally surrendered to pain. And that was such a big teacher for me.
And it was like a lesson I was putting off [00:24:00] for so long, , but it's been so rewarding.
Cameron: Yeah, that pain can be and really is a divine teacher. This is a very powerful, um, reflection
Track 1: Hmm.
Cameron: of well, where we're not in alignment. , right. We're holding onto pain, we're holding onto a belief system or a program or whatever that actually isn't in our highest, and most people live life ignoring emotions, trying to stuff it down, trying to not feel It would be more convenient if I didn't express this or whatever.
Track 1: Hmm
Cameron: And. Yeah, our bodies don't work like
Track 1: mm.
Cameron: Our bodies are designed to feel and to experience feelings, to experience emotions, energy, and emotion. And when we stop that, we create trauma essentially because they give it as like packets in your body that have eventually gotta be released. and so I'm really curious then how you [00:25:00] understand embodiment because.
Just, I'm not gonna say much about it, but when we both got on the call earlier today, I was describing to you about how I just had an awareness and awakening of sorts last night about patterns within myself and needing to really embody something that I have. Subconsciously and maybe even consciously pushed away for many years.
So how do you understand embodiment? What does that even mean? People say like, oh, embodiment feel. Things like,
Track 1: Yes. Oh my gosh. Okay. So that was my word of the year for my birthday. When I, last year, when I turned 28, I was like, my theme is embodiment because I was not in my body up until that year, . Um, but I would define embodiment as being like painfully present with all of your experiences and, um, giving them.
Being tender with them and giving yourself that, um, grace [00:26:00] to not assign any narratives to what you're feeling, um, whether it be shame or guilt or joy. Like some people might feel guilty for having joy about a certain thing, like, I don't know. Um, so I, for me, my embodiment practice has really been rooted in.
Getting, like, literally like feeling the souls of my feet just being so present in my body, like thinking about, um, the hunger pangs that I feel. Just even something as simple and like fundamental as my hunger, just not denying it. Especially as, as women, people who are socialized as women. As soon as you get the tinge of hunger, you can honor that.
As soon as you feel your eyes welling up with tears, cry. As soon as you feel angry, go take. Excuse yourself and go like, stomp your fucking feet. Like just letting the emotion, like being present in your body and just trusting your body to be like a, a, a, receive, like, [00:27:00] to receive the feeling to like have it, hold it and release it.
Um, that's been a big part of it sounds so fundamental and it sounds so basic, but it ha it for, for me anyway, it completely changed the way I'm relating to my life. Um, so just, yeah.
Cameron: Well, it is fundamental and it's a, it's a shame that fundamentally most humans don't understand this and don't feel safe in their bodies and make choices. Um, About their bodies that are not in their best. I mean, your body is a creation of your consciousness. So us a soul, you a soul coming into a body.
This body is divine. Whatever you have chosen, because it is the vehicle. You have chosen to carry you in this lifetime. You can't play on a 3D realm without a body. This is physical down here. And so I know in spiritual communities, like, oh, I'd love to transcend and ascend and get out of my body. Get outta my body.
Get outta my body. And the truth is, True [00:28:00] ascension is actually about shifting our bodies, the physical form into higher frequencies, bringing more love, more truth, more light into our beings. But the way we have to do that, or what's required is to feel,
Track 1: Mm-hmm.
Cameron: know, we look at. The world today, and most humans are disembodied, where we've got, you know, people watching so many videos on computers, like, I'm, I'm guilty of this too.
I spend a lot of time during the day on a computer and my mind is somewhere else. I'm not thinking about my body or people spending time in the metaverse or people doing this, or I don't wanna feel, so I'm gonna do this. Or I might take some sort of plant medicine to escape. Now I'm using a very specific, Instance right there.
For all of you that are listening to Escape uh, those are really powerful tools, but there's a lot of escapism. There's a lot of getting out of the body. There's a lot of ignoring. Let me watch a movie. Let me watch some Netflix. Let me have sex. Let me do these things [00:29:00] that actually are taking us out of the body.
And as you're saying, um, It's coming into the body. It's knowing, wow, this sensation is meaning this, oh, my soul is feeling this inside my body Though, you know, the experience of life is embodied here.
Track 1: Yeah, I did. I did not realize until last year that feelings are literal physical sensations that arise from your body and not a cognitive experience. The cognition happens after the body signals to the brain that you're experiencing something that was so foreign to me. And I also feel like when you realize that you're in your, when you be, when you ground into your body, You become so much more sensitive and attuned to what's happening around you.
And I am, I'm just so much more aware of the, how the spaces I choose to be in. Um, you know, imm, [00:30:00] I'm now addicted to sound baths because I'm like, this frequency feels good on my body. Like my body deserves to feel good if I'm gonna be in this body, I wanna be having a good time. And so I want, if I can help it, you know, like, Yes, feel the painful and the difficult emotions and feelings, but if I have choice, like I want to infuse my body with things that make me feel delighted, which was my word for this year of 29.
Cameron: Delighted. I love it. Well, when you, this conversation about embodiment, connecting with the body, I wanna ask you, um, about. Your connection with your higher self. How do you know when you're connected with your higher self? How do you probably feel that? For me, it's a very embodied experience to know when I am connected.
But I'm curious for you, how do you know when you're connected? Or maybe you can share an experience that you remember about being really connected with your higher self.
Track 1: Oh,[00:31:00]
I have one experience that really comes to mind as far as knowing that I'm connected to my higher self. Um, but. Generally before I share that, I will say generally, um, when I'm connected to my higher self, I feel very playful. I feel giddy and like excitable and just silly and at ease. Um, I feel safe and, um, yeah, I feel like there's nothing, not saying that, how can I word this?
I feel like anything is possible when I'm connected to my higher self, even if I'm having the most. Like difficult, painful day. Like I, I can still like relish in the fact that like, I am safe.
Cameron: Hmm. Yeah, that resonates for me a lot for then a sense of, for me, excitement, [00:32:00] but also calm at the same time, if that's even possible. And just this like knowing,
Track 1: Yes.
Cameron: I'm good. Share with us that
Track 1: Oh yeah. Well, I guess I feel like I might sort of bit contradictory because what I'm gonna share is like really intense, but as far as the experience. But it was that calmness. It was like, it was this, it was, it's hilarious. I guess I'll just share it, but I had this really deep realization a couple months ago, um, after therapy, um, without going into it too much, cuz it is, it is a bit triggering.
But, um, my grandma was in a relationship that. Eventually cost. My maternal grandmother was in a relationship that was so toxic it eventually cost her her life. And that left my mom to be an orphan. And she basic, she raised me without much maternal instincts from her mother because she was so young when her mom had passed.
So I do have a lot of generational trauma in my match for Lineage, and I had [00:33:00] this realization that. Um, my grandma picked a partner who kind of like resulted in her demise. My mom chose a partner that alienated her from her family, and I've also chosen a partner that has alienated me from my family. It was, it's like this really interesting generational pattern that I, I picked up on recently.
And I remember thinking that in, you know, in my present, like, Therapy session. I was like, oh, that's really, that's really interesting. I, I need to sit with this some more. You know? And then I was talking to my partner about it. I was like, isn't this so fascinating, this pattern that I've recognized in my natural lineage?
And then my mom texts me and she starts texting me about her mom, mind you, like, I, you know, I didn't tell her about this realization. It was very much like kind of spirit doing its thing, and. She texts me, she was like, she would love you so much. She wouldn't believe like, how beautiful you are. Mind you, this is like me having come out and my mom and I are estranged.
So receiving these messages from my mom [00:34:00] was also like very jarring and unexpected to begin with. And the fact that she was messaging me about my grandma, um, and just like all three, I felt like all three of us, all three of our higher selves were communing in that moment. Really like just three women just holding each other and I.
In that moment, I felt this wave, uh, it was a purge really, of so much grief. I heard this quote a while ago and I feel, uh, I feel bad. I can't remember who said it, but it was, it said something along the lines of pain travels through the family until someone is willing to feel it. . And in that moment I had this huge purge where I, I think I was sobbing like hysterically for about like 30 minutes.
And I was like gasping for air, gagging. It was not cute, but it was so good. And I remember just like my partner was like rubbing my back, looking at me like, are you okay? And I was just like, snotty and like dis. I looked. [00:35:00] Horrifying. But I was like, this, I was, in my head, I was like, I was laughing. I was like, I'm doing it, I'm doing it.
I'm fucking doing it. Like I'm feeling the feelings, you know, like the, my body was purging. I rem I, I do, I felt like I was just shedding things that just didn't belong to me. I just, these feelings, I can't, I can't even explain them. They were, they felt disgusting, honestly, but they'd had to come out. But all the while my higher self was just like cheering me on, like.
You go bitch. Like, yes. Like it was this hilarious like, uh, juxtaposition of like, true, it was like true drama comedy happening at the same time. So I felt very connected to my higher self. Even in those moments that looked like I was in despair, I was actually like making myself so proud.
Cameron: Hmm. Yeah. And you know, now you're bringing this, the concept of feeling right and embodiment, um, through lineage. So we inherit our d n A from people,
Track 1: That I have.
Cameron: get two people come together and we inherit their d a and you know, [00:36:00] the body is a physical vessel that, as we've already described, holds
Track 1: Mm-hmm.
Cameron: holds energy, holds trauma, holds feelings, holds emotions, and then. We share that we, we create life, we have sex, we create life. I mean, it doesn't happen immediately. It takes a little bit of time. Manifestation takes a little bit of time down on planet
Track 1: Yes, it does.
Cameron: Anyway, but around nine months later or so, a baby is born and we inherit the DNA of our parents, which includes all of the trauma.
It includes all everything, all of the information, the light codes for life for us to grow and develop and evolve, but also trauma and. Yeah, that what you shared about trauma being passed through a lineage until somebody is willing to feel it. It's also why so many of us, and I'm sure many of you are listening to this episode, um, We are being the ones asked to feel and heal that in our lineages, whatever that is for you.
Um, you know, it might have [00:37:00] been abuse or neglect from your great, great great grandmother and something that happened in injury physically to your great grandfather and whatever. And it's literally. In your genetics until it is dealt with and the only way you deal with it is feeling that. And so, yeah, I think that's really beautiful.
I don't know if there's anything else you wanna share that you've discovered or understood about generational or ancestral work. Um, but that story is very
Track 1: Thank you. Um, I feel like the more that I feel my feelings. And including the generational trauma that I carry in my body. I, I do feel like my, well, good ancestors have been showing up much more pro like, um, they had, they have a stronger presence in my life. Uh, my grandma visits me every so often in my dreams.
I have very, very powerful dreams with my grandma Geraldine, uh, since confronting my, my big scary feelings. And it's been [00:38:00] so, there's no, there's no way that you, you cannot confront the. For lack of better word, shit that you have inside of you and spirit, not rewards you. Like there's just, it's, it's just balance.
It just has to balance . I'm, I kid, there's no other way to explain it. So you're always rewarded for the effort that you put into your healing. And I have been, it's been beautiful.
Cameron: Yeah, that is beautiful. So maybe it's related to this, maybe it isn't, but what do you think limits or prevents people from living their purpose?
Track 1: Oh
Cameron: you, if you want to answer that personally or more generally, but what do you think is the biggest barrier to living our purpose?
Track 1: yeah. I will say
two things come to mind. Fear, I feel like that's very, like, people are very apprehensive and have a lot of fear around judgment or feel feelings of [00:39:00] inadequacy. But beyond that, I would say lack of representation. Uh, I don't feel like there's a lot of people, like when I grew up, the, the concept of like spirituality, like spiritual people were like dirty hippies.
Like it was a negative connotation. And even now, like I,
Cameron: Or they
Track 1: or they were what? The dirty witch. Yeah. The, the old hag. You know, so I, I, I do feel like it is a bit of a lack of representation. That is a bit, that can be a barrier, you know? And I feel like that was me with my curly hair, with my larger body. Like once I started seeing more of that, I was like, oh, I can absolutely rock.
Myself, like I can be myself. And I feel like that's an extension of like spiritual spirituality and people finding their purpose and their path is just having more people representing or just following their truth. Um, unabashedly just like saying yes to their, to their f frequency. I don't think we [00:40:00] see enough of that and people naming it explicitly and saying like, I'm honoring my sacred.
Yes. You know, I'm not following a blueprint of somebody else, like I'm living my truth.
Cameron: Girl, you just gave me the title for the episode. Honoring My Sacred.
Track 1: Yes.
Cameron: Oh my Honoring our frequency, which if we bring that back to astrology, right? That is what astrology affords us to know, which is our frequency, who we are at an energetic level, why we came here, um, and the expression of that. So, oh my gosh.
Honoring the sacred Yes,
Track 1: Yes. Yes. . Yes.
Cameron: Yes. Oh my goodness. So do you think you've discovered your purpose?
Track 1: Yes. . I just, I just had to say yes. I, I also feel like I can't, based off the events that have happened in my life, I feel like if I were to say no, spirit would look at me and be like, Bitch, are you serious right now? , like, [00:41:00] like we have been guiding you this whole time. Like we have put bumpers in the lane for you.
Like it's so, I feel so supported by spirit, especially in this like new, like this most recent season of healing over this past about like 12 months or so since, um, Virgo season last year. I've been, so, I feel like I'm just getting closer and closer and closer to my, to my truth and my path. I don't know where it's taking me, but I know that I'm on it, if that makes sense.
Cameron: Yes. Yeah. Yeah. And to know that you're on your path is really enough because your purpose evolves over time and
Track 1: Yes, absolutely. I mean, us even being here together is, I'm on my path.
Cameron: Yeah. Me too. So thanks for co-creating that with me. Oh my gosh. This conversation was so much fun. Thank you so much for being
Track 1: you.
Cameron: Um, And for those of you that would like to connect with Savannah, [00:42:00] you can check out her information in the show notes.
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